Inertia

definition of inertia :

The tendency of an object to remain in it's state of rest or state of motion unless acted upon by an external force.

well.i don't care if i defined it correctly or not...all i want is just to express my feelings

I'm like a gigantic ship with large inertia...
(It's not like i am very fat and cannot move easily...)
I just kinda refuse to move on and grow up.

Sometimes, i still have to remind myself
"ok, Miss Soon.You're already 17 and not a kiddie anymore!So try to be matured."

After days of trying not to throw a tantrum(i still do that>.<),hit my sister, or hide her belongings(don't laugh at me)......i always give up...

I just realized the the burden that i'm carrying is my sins
maybe i should pray more to God to ask for forgiveness
and lighten my burden in order to reduce the inertia...
and start to grow up...

I know this is weird...
but do try hard to understand